I once had a wise old friend who was a computer programmer, (from a time before the words computer and programmer existed in a dictionary,) who gave me one piece of sage advice I have tried to live by, and on the times I’ve failed have discovered it to be true.
“Never let a computer, or a printer, know that you are in a rush or you want to go home.”
Then today, a random link, from a random link, from a random link, found me discovering that there is actually a word for it…
The seemingly spiteful behavior shown by inanimate objects
Thank you Obsolete Word of the Day
because sometimes you just have to.
There’s a reason for my love of procrastination, and to be blunt about it, it’s a complete lack of faith in my own abilities.
As much as I would love to be a writer, I don’t believe I have the ability to do it. I don’t believe I have an imagination to come up with great stories. I’m almost of the opinion why am I bothering? before I even start. Every other year I sign myself up for NaNoWriMo, and every other year I sit for a few days staring at a blank screen, before beginning to find and increasing number of other things to do instead of sitting there, and finally giving up for another year.
Then because I’ve given up I feel like everyone I know is laughing at my attempts to call myself anything because I can’t do it, and that every time I say something about writing people just sneer to themselves that I’m all talk.
I set myself up for failure every year before I start. I believe I am a failure, and unable to do this. In fact I often wonder if I shouldn’t just give it all up and resign myself to just being a reader, but then the annoying little voice inside my head tells me I’ll never be happy if that’s what I do.
It remains to be seen if I manage to do anything this month, but as always I’ll give it a try, and if I can at least beat my all time best of 10,000 words then maybe there’s a glimmer of hope for me after all.
New shoes make things better.
They don’t make things right, or make them go away, just make them better. They bring perspective. Make things seem more manageable. They help.
I bought these when I said goodbye to the boy cat.